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Not my best scores in any category. From last time, I decreased in sit ups, stayed the same in push ups, and hastened my run by 22 seconds.
I was legit 2 timer seconds away from NOT being the slowest person in my class this time 13:29 vs 13:27. …..SO CLOSE!!! NEXT TIME!!!!
My last stats:
My best stats:
What I need to pass:
My goal tomorrow is to pass. But if I can beat either of the two sets of scores posted above, I think I’ll reward myself. I’m going out to dinner after the PRT. I’m sure I can find something very rewarding on the drinks and dessert menus. :-)
I’m getting nervous.
I really really really really want a sub-2:30.
Today I ran 11 miles in 2:15. :-/ That means I need to finish the last two in 15 minutes. I was so tired and crampy at 11 miles, there’s no way I could pull off a 7.5 minute mile for the last two miles.
On a positive note, I ran sub-race pace (11:27/mile or faster) for the first 6 miles. I ran a really great 5k time for me (33:34), and my best 10k time yet (1:09:??). I even ran my best 7 and 8 mile times yet, though both of those were slower than race pace.
In defense of my time, it was an afternoon run (I do better in the morning), and I wasn’t hydrated or fueled or rested well. So maybe on race day, when I’ve eaten carbs, drank lots of water, and gotten a full night’s sleep I’ll be better equipped to stick with race pace for longer. I also have 3 more weeks to train. So, not ALL hope is lost, even if I do feel like it’s a long shot.
I finished 11 miles at my half last May in 2:17:35. But I only maintained a sub-11:30 pace through mile four. So… Idk. I guess we’ll see what race day brings.
It’s been over a month. I got no where in terms of weight. I tracked my calories and everything I ate. Nothing. Not even close to my weigh in weight. I should pass the body fat taping ok, but it’s so subjective. We’ll see who’s actually doing the taping.
I’m confident that I will pass my run. I’ve been doing so much running, and my endurance and speed have improved. I’m fairly confident I’ll be able to pass the push ups too. I won’t do awesome. I won’t get zillions of push ups. But I’ll manage to pass, mostly because the passing bar is set so low.
The sit ups are concerning. I can usually do a set of 30 fairly easily. After that, I can eek them out in sets of 5-10 with a break between depending on how tired I am. So can I easily do the 60 that I need to pass, yes. The question is whether or not I’ll be able to do them in the 2 minute time limit. I have to keep my breaks short, but if they’re too short, I can’t perform the next set.
Even if I do pass all three elements, it’s still considered an over all failure if I don’t pass the weigh in/body fat taping.
I have tracked my calories at a deficit for 4 weeks now. I managed to lose 1 pound, on a good day. Some days, only half a pound down is what the scale is showing.
I went to my roommates birthday party yesterday, and I decided that I wouldn’t be tracking my calories. It was one day, I ran 9 miles that morning, and I was going to enjoy the day fully without worrying about what I ate.
I’m up five and a half pounds. Yup. 5.5 pounds gained.
In what universe can you eat at a deficit for a month and not lose anything, and then spend one day eating like a normal person… (seriously, I had eggs, half a bagel with cream cheese, half a clif bar, three pieces of pizza, a slice of paleo birthday cake, half of a small cheese, nuts, fruit, and crackers plate, Gatorade, and a couple of glasses of wine, it’s not like I ate 15,000 calories or anything.) and gain over five pounds??
What is my body even doing?????
Yes, I’ve been a fitblr for more than three years now. I know the number on the scale is NOT the best way to judge healthy lifestyle changes. I know that you can experience muscle gain before fat loss, and small changes the scale can’t appreciate in other ways. Normally, I’m all over this. I judge my weight by how my pants are fitting. I take bust, waist, neck, and hip measurements. I see improvements in my fitness as progress.
But that’s not what this weight loss has been about. My navy weigh in is in two weeks. I’ve spent the last four weeks trying really hard to get my weight down in a slow, progressive way so that I wouldn’t need to crash diet the few days before the weigh in.
And now, here I am, two weeks out and 4 pounds up from where I started originally. And I’m SO ANGRY about it. I want to be healthy. I want to treat my body right. That’s been the point of everything on this blog for the last three years.
So here I am, treating my body right and getting no where. And because I CAN NOT fail my weigh in, I’m going to be forced to do something unhealthy to pass.
I just have this feeling like what’s the freaking point of the effort I put in over the last month if I’m just going to have to cut anyway??? Why do I even try???
Today was my (ex)roommate’s birthday party. What she wanted was another paleo birthday cake like last year and a group tasting tour through Virginia Wine Country. So I baked a cake, and we hired a limo-bus and drank wine from about 10:30am to 4:00pm.
I planned ahead. I knew that I had 9 miles of marathon training on the schedule for Sunday. I knew that there was a great possibility of me being hung over on Sunday and NOT wanting to run 9 miles. I also have a really big school assignment due Monday morning, and I wanted Sunday to work on it.
Running Saturday night was clearly out, and while running Friday night was an option, I had a paper due Saturday morning that I had to finish Friday night. Also, I hate running after eating dinner. I feel gross.
So what was I left with? Skip the run? In the past that would have been a distinct possibility. But not now, not this race. I had to run these miles.
So for the first time since my military “boot camp” training, I was up in the 4 o’clock hour to go exercise. I ran 8.6 miles in 2 hours, and while I didn’t finish the full nine because I was running out of time to get ready to leave, I still felt like I had accomplished a good thing.
I’m really proud of how well I’ve stuck to my training schedule for this race, and I think this morning proves my dedication. I want that sub-2:30 so hard.
That being said, the pace of most of my long training runs would put me at mile 12 at 2:30, not 13.1. I’m trying my best, but when I run any faster, I end up feeling so dead I have to walk. I’m doing sprint work outs and race pace runs, and I’m easily maintaining pacing on those shorter runs. I’m on pace until about 5 miles, and then I die.
I’ve still got a month and 4 long training runs. I can only hope I get stronger before this race happens.
My current total calorie deficit for the last three weeks was 8,458. That’s enough calories to earn myself 2.4 pounds down in three weeks.
Almost my entire intake is organic and homemade (excepting my protein shakes), with a good mix of vegetables, fruits, and proteins, mostly from fish and eggs and dairy products.
I stuck to my training plan better than any month in my life. I skipped a total of five workouts for the entire month of August. Five, out of the whole month.
I’m currently running about 18-20 miles a week, biking 10 miles a week, and working on abs/core and arms to get my sit ups and push ups down better before my prt. I am significantly improving in endurance, and counts on all of these exercises.
I’m managing 6-7 hours of sleep per night, which is a lot for a med student, and more than enough for me to be thankful for. I haven’t had to move beyond one cup of coffee a day, so that’s good enough for me.
My point is.
If nutrition, exercise, and sleep is rocking…how come the scale says I’m not even down half a pound yet?????????